Recorded November 14, 2020
Sometimes I forget. My heart closes, my head twists, and I forget.
Trust is hard to maintain when I look around. But it’s all just a test. Small bits keep me steady. Small bits remind me.
It’s not easy though. Tests are being thrown at me left and right. One hit, two hits, three…
Now I’m fucked, and so is my perspective.
Doubt spreads large and wide like a black cloud overhead. How long will I remain in this funk?
Eventually I correct myself. Yet one more opportunity to be conscious. Gotta be easier on myself. Say it again but this time mean it. I gotta be easier on myself.
I remember to trust then I forget, and then I doubt. It’s part of my process. I remember to trust.